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I am sitting here, in an N7 tank and pajama bottoms, wishing I at least had a crew to spend the holidays with. I feel like they've lost the feeling they used to have at my house. I'm going to be here alone tonight, eating pizza rolls as a Christmas Eve dinner as my parents go to my grandmother's.
Some of you may ask "Well Crystal, why don't you just go to your grandmother's and spend time with the family there?" I can't. I would but...since my grandfather passed, my grandmother has let all manner of people into her house--she has let my aunt bring in herself, her previously jailed friends, her current lay, and her dealers. I am...legitimately terrified of what people I will find there if I go. I can't...I shouldn't feel fear going to spend time with my family for the holidays--and those people shouldn't even be there.
I wish I could have gone to Florida for the holiday, but my mother would have never let me go and be out of town for the holiday...not that we're doing anything for it anyway. I would have loved to spend it with my fiancee...and with the friends she will be having over tomorrow. I would have loved to have seen Megan again, especially with the recent little addition to her family. I think that's what makes this hurt. I can't face the situation at my grandmother's, and I can't even spend time with those I have adopted as family--and so I am alone. And it sucks.
Merry Christmas.
Some of you may ask "Well Crystal, why don't you just go to your grandmother's and spend time with the family there?" I can't. I would but...since my grandfather passed, my grandmother has let all manner of people into her house--she has let my aunt bring in herself, her previously jailed friends, her current lay, and her dealers. I am...legitimately terrified of what people I will find there if I go. I can't...I shouldn't feel fear going to spend time with my family for the holidays--and those people shouldn't even be there.
I wish I could have gone to Florida for the holiday, but my mother would have never let me go and be out of town for the holiday...not that we're doing anything for it anyway. I would have loved to spend it with my fiancee...and with the friends she will be having over tomorrow. I would have loved to have seen Megan again, especially with the recent little addition to her family. I think that's what makes this hurt. I can't face the situation at my grandmother's, and I can't even spend time with those I have adopted as family--and so I am alone. And it sucks.
Merry Christmas.
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I'm across the country and all, but I'll gladly be part of your crew in spirit, at least.
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And yeah it...kind of sucks, but my brother at least stayed home...and set me up with Dr.Who so...some positive?
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But ugh, nah I know it's gotta be pretty rough. Just the situation you described with your grandmother and your extended family as a whole seems really difficult. I can't blame you for being pretty down about it all.
Meanwhile, I think 'd'awww, puppy'... ffffffffff
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Yeaaah it's...not good. And unfortunately I hear all about it from Mom since she does Grandma's bills...
Dude. Puppy is an adorable flouncing weenydog. So cute. And warm. He was a foot warmer.
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Ugh, so she's also footing their costs? Blegh. All I have to say about that.
On the other hand, flouncing weenydog eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I'm sorry dogs are one of my weaknesses, I too use my canines as alternatives to space-heaters.
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asdkfhasg Oh god, dogs are so my weakness too. I love animals in general, but I absolutely cannot deny a dog.
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It's a rule, isn't it?
/hugs?
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Ergh. We are a blendy mess today, mostly because I know I can't deal with family for this long on my own and some new household additions have 44 all nervous. Wish I'd seen this last night, there was totally enough food and wine at the Kloskas' that you would've been welcome... I hope today's been better, at least?
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